Obnoxiously offensive & Coquettishly Cute...take notes

So, today is pretty chill. i suppose. I've just been thinking lately about a lot of things, and I think if I focus, and start making right decisions and being positive, everything is gonna work out! haha I love the juicy graphic up top, because some girls are born winners, and i think me & u anja, are two of those girls, but being born a winner and staying a winner are two different things, and I think we just need to keep doing our best :D and we'll be great.
i like that one too, ^ because girls (haha especially me) always seem to obsess so much about guys, like even if I don't specifically like anyone, a lot of the stuff i do is motivated by guys , like oh I have to do my hair and look cute and etc. etc. And that's kinda stupidd haha. Like guys are totally not worth that! So from now, I'm just gonna focus on the important things in my life, the things that I really care about, you know? Focus on God, and friends, family and important stuff, and I think that all those little problems that seem so big will go away and i'll be happier. :D it's one of the reasons I quitting cheer. I wanna be like him (below), letting go and enjoying life, every single day.

<3 maggs.

Mono.

So, I'd just thought I'd explain the whole mono thing,

and what happened to me and all, it's kinda been hard to explain before, but I saw this quote and I was like "Wow, thats so completely it..."

"Like all of a sudden i didn't fit in

anywhere. not at school, not at
home. and every time i turn
around, another person i've
known forever is a stranger to me."

that's just how it was for me. and my god, it sucked. It's like I slowly noticed it and I just didn't care...it was weird. I just did whatever was easiest and not cared about the things that were important to me, like my real friends, and grades and stuff like that. It was like i wasn't living life (not to be dramatic and all ) but like i was just a zombie going through it every day.

So I hope that helps to sort of explain it, and the way I was acting and stuff, I should probally show this to other people to explain lol, it was just the weirdest thing, but i think i'm (hopefully)

out of it now, although sometimes it comes back ( like this weekend up until tonight) but I'm really gonna try to go back to normal!

:D hope it works out!!

Another quote I read was

"Do you know why some people read?

it's because they want to get away,

a place to escape to." <---so true about me lately haha.

so yeah,

thought i'd explain? haha

love always and foreverr! maggs

i hopee you dancee :]

i love that song. here are some of the lyrics:
haha very inspiring :)

"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes,
I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I
hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance"

my mom has always said this is her song to me.
I love it, especially the line, "I hope you still feel
small when you stand by the ocean." I don't know why it just
strikes me, the ocean is so amazing and great, I
always look at it and think "wow there's so much out there, so many
places i haven't been, things I haven't done, people I haven't met." and its like
Bam. my problems seem so insignificant compared to it, it's calming. :)

hence the picture at the top, reminds me of maryland, im totally living there, haha
or at least defenitely getting a summer house there! it's beautiful especially in the summer,
ill have to bring you up with me anja! you can meet my hot cousins! haha.

So this week was surprising really good for me, i think it was the lack of cheerleading,
I just feel like my normal self again (out of mono zone) and its really nice, I hope it continues
like this...
and I'm happy to hear your doing better :] i'm sure it'll all work out for the best with him ;]
whatever happens. as for me and the love lifee...haha I don't know, I'm feeling like i could like someone but I just have to find him haha, I really wish I could take the qualities I love about a bunch of different guys, and put them all together to make one amazing guy, but sadly life doesn't work like tht haha. well whatever, for now, I'll enjoy it. And we defenitely need to plan hanging out :))
Write soon! I fixed my comments! :D

<3 maggie.

surveryyy.

Currently, im kind of having a writer's block so i shall do your survey :p

My 105 Truths

1. Full Name- Marjorie Elise Gruehn

2. Like it-ehh take it or leave it, not too fond of elise,

3. Single or Taken- singlee.
4. Zodiac Sign- sagtarius

5. Male or Female- female.
6. Elementary- DC

7. Middle School- Dcc

8. High School- DC freshmen year, who knows after that..haha

9. Planning on college- defenitelyy
.
10. Hair Color- dirtyyblonde.
15. Are you a health freak- i can be

16. Do you smile a lot- hmm generally

17. Do you have a crush-nopee

18. Do you like yourself- sometimes, for the most part but i have my moments

19. Piercings- ears.? kindaa

20. Tattoos- noneee...yet.

21. Right or Lefty- right

FIRSTS
22. first surgery- i had oral surgery? if that counts ehh it was scaryy
23. first piercings- ears
24. first best friend- cerise
25. first cell phone- 13! haha a pink razor, that i just got rid of =]
26. first sport- gymnastics when i was 2!
27. first pet- lance, (dog)
30. first love- hmm love? or crush? haha

FAVORITES
31. favorite holiday- i like christmas, it used to be my brithday, but not reallyy anymore. Also like halloween =]
32. favorite food- milkshakes!
33. favorite memory- theres a lot..
34. favorite vacation- hawaii, las vegas, the breakers, Marco Island, BVI
35. favorite pastime- reading def, and writing, being with friends, snowboarding, music
36. favorite sport- cheerleading
37. favorite song- wow theres a lot, i like, "I wanna know your plans"-Say anything, "Beauty in the Breakdown"- by the Scene Asthenic
38. favorite tee shirt-that changes a lot
39. favorite saying- haha i say "i'm not gonna lie.." haha and (mostly in my head) __mc__pants haha like losermcloserpants. stff like tht, i know i'm weird.
40. favorite movie- bewitched, juno, forgetting sarah marshall, ella enchanted haha

THIS OR THAT
41. high fives or what's ups- whatsup. highfives can be cool but usually there gay
42. jeans or sweatpants- jeans, for comfortt haha i wear pajama pants =]
43. music or tv - music!!
44. Las Vegas or New York - hmm probally new york but i like both
45. morning or night- nightt. im not a morning person
46. brothers or sisters - i dontt have sisterrs =[
47. movies or plays- movies.
48. smiles or frowns - smiles

CURRENTLY
49. eating- de nada
50. drinking- hot chocolatee
52. listening to- my name is august on the radio 93.7
53. waiting for- school to start...NOOOO! haha and matt to call?
54. wearing- pajama pants and a black mini dress with gray polkadots...i know I'm weird...

FUTURE
55. want kids -yuppp =] i want twins!!
56. want to get married- definitelyy.
57. live in a big house-yeahh. well i want to live in a nice one
58. go to college- defenitely
59. live in which state - im not sure yet, i have ideas tho. Not PA tho!
60. go to Mexico- yeah i'd like to, ride horses on the beach and all =]
61. produce music- sure why not
62. visit which city - all of them! haha nah but i want to travel ALOT!
63. get braces- =[[[[ have them.
64. be baptized- already am .
65. plant a tree - sureeee.
66. learn to surf -yeah.
67. careers in mind- anything in fashion, acting, lawyer, business, writer? infinite possibilities!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. lips or eyes - eyes
69. hugs or kisses - kisses :]
70. shorter or taller- taller. definitely.
71. tan skinned or light- either as long as it looks good.
72. romantic or spontaneous - both!!
73. dark or light hair - as long as it looks good!! :D
76. similar to you or different- a little bit of both, mostly different but some things in common

HAVE YOU EVER
77. thrown up on a friend- well not a friend really...haha but someone i knew.
78. kissed a stranger- uhuh
80. broken a bone- yeah!
81. climbed up a tree- of coursee =]
82. broken someones heart - yuppp
83. turned someone down - defenitelyy.
84. liked a friend as more than a friend - well duhh.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
85. love at first sight- hmm, not love but defenitely lust! hah.
86. yourself- sometimes.
87. miracles- yeah
88. a smile can change the world - not likely. but a few peoples worlds =]

89. Santa Claus- notuhhh
91. angels– oh yeah.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY.
92. are you missing someone? yupp
93. who do you love? lots of people! friends family and cutee non-jerkist boys, especially ones named nate....;DD
94. Are you cool? hah, oh yeah let me tell u...:p

LASTS
95. Text message -yeahh i don't text.
96. Received call- i dontt feel like getting my phoneee!
97. Call made- dittoo.
98. Person you kissed - rickyy? i think? haha
99. Person you slept with - oh just 3 people...me myself and I :D
100. Person you hung out with - hmm sar bear i believee.
101. You hugged- hmmm. anja, tara, rachel? people at schoool =]
102. You smiled at- my brotherr?
103. You missed- not going to borders! grr i wanna book!
104. You slapped- haha lemme think....
105. TV show you watched-scrubs.

the new year brings new things? no crap maggie....

so the "new year brings new things"...wow profound statement maggie :pp
but really its true...these were my new years resolutions::

1. Don't care what other people think
2. Follow my own advice
3. Have my life reflect what I believe
4. Never lie, say what I really think
5. Stop competing with others, just be the BEST that I can be.
6. Lead a healthy lifestyle
7. Love myself
8. Learn to play an instrument
9. Stop Judging others.
10. Take Ballet.
11. Never be intimidated by others
12. Go snowboarding a lot, and be outside more
13. Be true to myself, don't try to be anyone else
14. Re-decorate my room.
15 Follow my heart!



Originally I wrote this New years :D
but what do you think?
I'm gonna really try to remember and keep these this year!!

don't kiss and telll.

(to settle curiousity, the title has nothing to do with the post haha :p it's just the title of a song)

(AND THIS POST WAS ACTUALLY FINISHED TODAY 1/6 BUT STARTED EARLIER)

love this :] it's so amazing and true! if you can't tell just yet, this is another inspirational post :D hah we love these anja :P :D^ MY ROOOM! haha im totally putting this in it too!
"We're remembered because we're odd. We make people laugh, we strut, we insert random comments when we feel like it. We're the kind of people who ask to touch your hair. Our socks dont always match, our underwear is cool (yes, we dance in it). We procrastinate, we like the rain. Most of what we say doesn't make sense, but the only reason we said it, was because we knew it would make you smile."

“But the real secret to total gorgeousness is to believe in yourself, have self confidence, and try to be secure in your decisions and thoughts.”

"Self-confidence gives you the freedom to make mistakes and cope with failure without feeling that your world has come to an end or that you are a worthless person.”

this is site is amazing:
http://www.xanga.com/makeamiraclehappen <--- seriously go there! haha

inspire you?
well it inspired me! haha
today wasn't half bad, although it's 8:48 and I;ve done
absolutely no homework.
What a procrastinator I am...haha
but i made cookies for kess's bdayy
and i'm happier than I've been in the
last couple of months :]
wooo what a way to start off the new year =] haha
also I called my coach and told her what's going on
I didn't offically quit tho, lol i chickened out but I told her
I had mono...blah blah blah...and said I would decide if "i was able to cheer"
by next week and she gave me this week off. YAY almost freee. haha
I hope our weeks continue superr well and this all goes great.
Keep blogging babe, cuz my blogg is fixed and
I'm Back.

heart. you. maggs!

REVAMP <3

that blue is my favorite color :] it's ridiculously gorgeous.
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So obviously. i've done a revamp on my blog :D
do u like ? ?
it was fun and i was bored on this monday night :]]
so i had a beyond crazy night last nite and I don't know how it happened
it was superrr weird. haha ( ill tell u about it laterr)
but how is JAMACIA?! u better be able to post! because i'm so gonna miss u on here!
i bet it's amazing and im jeal0us :D haha
but anyways I don't really have an agenda for this post...hmmm.

& It's a rule of life - that everything you've
always wanted, will come the very second
you stop looking for it,

You put on a good show but I'd be willing to bet that
you're suffering more than you let anyone see.
- Twilight

i love break. please never ever end. I seriously don't know what I'm gonna do when I have to go back to school. I' m gonna freaking die. haha. hmm homeschool? haha
so last night i hungout with taylor (sorta) haha, and sam perry was there (ew)
and they were talking about rustin and i was just listening; throwing in some
comments here and there, haha and as i listened to them i was just like ugh
these rustin kids sound messed up, do i really want to go therre?
UGH! i just wanna be happy and love my school, god i'm so confused now
I really don't know what I wanna do. :/


love maggss <3