id be lying if i told you, losing you was something i could handle.

i miss him. 

a lot. 

and it sucks because i used to think it was just garrett 

and the thing with him, but at the same time, i don;t think it was just that, 

i think matt's distancing himself, from me, because i know him so well and i know that 

somethings wrong, somethings been wrong for awhile with him 

but he would never tell me, and i feel like this thing that i have was just an excuse to distance himself from me. 

but if it wasnt, i hope he knows that i would never give him up for garrett. any day. 

i miss him and it sucks but i dont know what to do about it. 

i know this sounds gay or whatever

but its like i lost a part of myself

i lost one of my best friends

and how do i get him back? 

i dont even know. 

=[ 

i want to help him 

and i wantto talk to him

and i just miss him 

i want to go back to the way it was. 

and yeah ive tried to fill the gap 

with gar and dave 

and anyother guy 

but no one is him and no one understands me the wya he does

and it  just sucked. 

100 % i dont know what to do.