don't kiss and telll.

(to settle curiousity, the title has nothing to do with the post haha :p it's just the title of a song)

(AND THIS POST WAS ACTUALLY FINISHED TODAY 1/6 BUT STARTED EARLIER)

love this :] it's so amazing and true! if you can't tell just yet, this is another inspirational post :D hah we love these anja :P :D^ MY ROOOM! haha im totally putting this in it too!
"We're remembered because we're odd. We make people laugh, we strut, we insert random comments when we feel like it. We're the kind of people who ask to touch your hair. Our socks dont always match, our underwear is cool (yes, we dance in it). We procrastinate, we like the rain. Most of what we say doesn't make sense, but the only reason we said it, was because we knew it would make you smile."

“But the real secret to total gorgeousness is to believe in yourself, have self confidence, and try to be secure in your decisions and thoughts.”

"Self-confidence gives you the freedom to make mistakes and cope with failure without feeling that your world has come to an end or that you are a worthless person.”

this is site is amazing:
http://www.xanga.com/makeamiraclehappen <--- seriously go there! haha

inspire you?
well it inspired me! haha
today wasn't half bad, although it's 8:48 and I;ve done
absolutely no homework.
What a procrastinator I am...haha
but i made cookies for kess's bdayy
and i'm happier than I've been in the
last couple of months :]
wooo what a way to start off the new year =] haha
also I called my coach and told her what's going on
I didn't offically quit tho, lol i chickened out but I told her
I had mono...blah blah blah...and said I would decide if "i was able to cheer"
by next week and she gave me this week off. YAY almost freee. haha
I hope our weeks continue superr well and this all goes great.
Keep blogging babe, cuz my blogg is fixed and
I'm Back.

heart. you. maggs!

REVAMP <3

that blue is my favorite color :] it's ridiculously gorgeous.
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So obviously. i've done a revamp on my blog :D
do u like ? ?
it was fun and i was bored on this monday night :]]
so i had a beyond crazy night last nite and I don't know how it happened
it was superrr weird. haha ( ill tell u about it laterr)
but how is JAMACIA?! u better be able to post! because i'm so gonna miss u on here!
i bet it's amazing and im jeal0us :D haha
but anyways I don't really have an agenda for this post...hmmm.

& It's a rule of life - that everything you've
always wanted, will come the very second
you stop looking for it,

You put on a good show but I'd be willing to bet that
you're suffering more than you let anyone see.
- Twilight

i love break. please never ever end. I seriously don't know what I'm gonna do when I have to go back to school. I' m gonna freaking die. haha. hmm homeschool? haha
so last night i hungout with taylor (sorta) haha, and sam perry was there (ew)
and they were talking about rustin and i was just listening; throwing in some
comments here and there, haha and as i listened to them i was just like ugh
these rustin kids sound messed up, do i really want to go therre?
UGH! i just wanna be happy and love my school, god i'm so confused now
I really don't know what I wanna do. :/


love maggss <3

holly jolly christmas :D

christmas.
the most wonderful time of the year :]
and mine was greatt :D
presentss!*:

-juicy couture necklace
-real :] double strand pearls and matching pearl bracelet
-hot pink amazinggness straightener & serum and hair stff
-canddyy of course :D
- two long sleeved juicy shirts
- one short sleeved juicy shirt
- adorably comfortable pajama pants
- juicy coat! :DD
- juicy tracksuit
-juicy perfume
- pink venus! :]]
- 50$ visa giftcard
-abrocrombiee sweater

:D so mine was good
&* even better...i have 285 to spend on aftercmas sales! + giftcard! yay haha
urs sounds like a great c-mas too! i was in macys todayy and they had some adorable stff in the juniors section! :]]
cant wait to hangout ! just call me when u get back !
loveee u :D
maggs

its begginning to look a lot like christmas...

[NOW ]
Current mood: exciteddd
Current music: christmas music..psh what else?
Current taste: in my mouth? de nada
Current hair: stickk straight =] haha and down.
Current clothes: ho ho ho pajama pants and a my chemical romance shirtt
Current annoyance: worrying about my presents? aha and this kid who keeps stalking me on facebook.... :pp
Current smell: nothing really...theyre cooking downstairs but I can't smell it...
Current thing I should be doing: getting dressed? haha its 3:00 :p
Current windows open: i don't think any are
Current desktop picture: theres actually no pictures on here..kinda weird..
Current favorite band: theress too many.
Current book: I actually started re-reading breaking dawn last nite

Current cd in stereo: james taylor christmas cd haha its on right now. i <3>
Current crush: no one realllyy haha for once :p im sure they'll be someone soon
Current favorite celeb: blake lively

[ DO YOU.. ]
Smoke?: nopee
Do drugs?: that;s stupid
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: not really. i have before tho.
Remember your first love?: yupp, my old neighbor nick haha
Still love him/her?: haha noo i haven't seen him in foreverr.
Read the newspaper?: not at all.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: haha yeaa.
Believe in miracles?: for the most part.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: hmmm yeah i guess, its hard tho.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: uhm yeah, but defenitely not all the time
Consider love a mistake?: not love but sometimes who you love is a mistake
Like the taste of alcohol?: some of it.
Have a favorite candy?: nerds, gummi worms, gummi bears
Believe in astrology?: nahh.
Believe in magic?: sometimes.
Believe in god?: of course.
Have any pets: spikeyy =]
Go to or plan to go to college: defenitely plan to .
Have any piercings?: haha ive gotten my ears pierced A LOT
Have any tattoos?: not yet..
Hate yourself: sometimes.
Have an obsession?: defenitely
Have a secret crush?: yeahhh haha.
Have a best friend?: lots.
Wish on stars?: occasionally.

[ LOVE LIFE ]

Ever been in love?:yeah.
When did you lose your virginity?: haven't yet.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: haha sometimes.
Do you believe in "the one?": yuppp.
Describe your ideal significant other: as long as his name is nate :p ask me about the rest, i don't know someone wouldn't have to be my perfect ideal to be exactly what I need..

[ETC]
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: hahhaha yupp
Have you ever been intoxicated?:as in drunk? yess.
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": haha yeah.
Are you a tease?: a lot of people say that, and i can be but as a rule nahh.
Shy to make the first move?: i don't make the first move, u know as a rule

[ APPEARANCE ]
Hair: long dirty blonde curlyy curly hair =]
Eyes: blue.
Height: 5'2'', im suchaa shorty

[ LAST THING.. ]
Bought: a cokee.
Ate & Drank: a piece of pizza and lemonade iced tea, i know oh-so-christmasyy haha
Read: breakingg dawn
Watched on TV: i think oliver is on downstairs but im not watching it...

[ EITHER OR.. ]
beer or cider: cider i guess. beer=eww
drinks or shots: drinks.
cats or dogs: dogs.
single or taken: depends on the person im taken by? haha
pen or pencil: depends what im doing, gosh u need to be more specific :p
gloves or mittens: gloves. mittens are for little kidds haha
food or candy: candy :]
cassette or cd: cd.
coke or pepsi: coke.

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO.. ]
kill: hmmm ill get back to you :p
get really wasted with: defenitely not the kid whos been bugging me too. aha, idk my friends i guess?
look like: myself but prettierr :p haha
avoid: annoying people.

[ LAST PERSON YOU.. ]
saw: my grandparents/brothers/parents
talked to on the phone: hmm my brother i think
hugged: hahaha a random guy in the mall!
instant messaged: facebook chatted work? nathann eww
kissed: blah blah blah. dont kiss & tell ;]

[ HAVE YOU EVER.. ]
Drank alcohol?: yeah.
Done drugs?: nooopee
Broken the law?: yeaa in some way :p hah
Run away from home?: ive thought about it alot!
Broken a bone?: yes.
Played Truth Or Dare?: duhhh
Kissed someone you didn't know?: yupppp
Been in a fight?: defenitely!
Come close to dying?: proballyy.

[ WHAT IS.. ]
Your bedroom like?: normally? Messy as anything. Today ? Clean :D
Your favorite thing for breakfast?: depends on my mood. but i love honey roasted (or is it coated??) bunches of oats
Your favorite restaurant?:lots but i love sullivans, peking, outback, charthousee :D
What's on your bedside table?: lamp, lots of paper, magazine, a clock, a phone, pic of me and tayy.
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: usually drink something, but uhh idk cereal probally, and one time for like a month i would always have a salad craving in the middle of the nite haha it was weirdd.
What is your biggest fear?: being kidnapped or murdered haha. or depressed..
Describe your bed: giant, hot pink and zebraa haha comfortableee :D
Spontaneous or plain?: spontaneous, plain is so blah.
Do you know how to play poker?: yuppp.
What do you carry with you at all times? ahh nothing that i can think of, im not really the "omgg i must have my phone at all times" type.
How do you drive? decentlyy. and fast haha
What do you miss most about being little? idk i wish i could go back and fix things.
Are you happy with your given name? for the most part.
What color is your bedroom? creamm walls, but theres pinkk everywheree.
Have you ever been in a play? yeahh.
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? kinda makes me sad, but sometimes its annoying i guess?
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? usallly :D if ur nice to me ill be nice to u :]

Shes's a backseat driver, a drama provider, an instant update of the world <3

hahaaa ^^ i found this on my computerr today, i know im cool :ppp

So today was greatt :D
shopping at KOP allll dayy was amazing.
first i got my hair straightened, it looked amazing, so i brought a new straightener, one hot pink & one zebra! :D they match my room
then i went around to all the different stores with my mom and showed her the stff i liked and tried it on & suchh,
then cheesecake factory for lunch :]] yum, then i went to borders while my mom went to buy all the stuff for christmas. haha I read a whole boook :] notorious, in the It girls series, and i sat next to the cutest guy, and got asked for my number by another one, :]]
then tjmaxx with my mom, where i got 2 juicy shirts and a true religion shirt, and a new dress :]
suchh a good dayy :DD


"Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now."
- Tay Swift, white horse

^so im totally not in a sad mood or anything but i completely love that song! haha :D love her.

magggie ! <3

keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through.

i had a really long talk with my brother today while we were doing the dishes, we talked about the future a lot, him going to college next year and all. And we talked about how weird it was now that we were older and reality really set in.. Like how when we were younger Christmas was so amazing and magical and perfect and then this year we picked out our presents and I was the one who ordered them....not my parents, it was just weird. We remembered thinking of our parents as so great and i don't know it's weird, knowing there just ordinary people who can't fix everything, it's kinda sad in a way, but I guess reality can be sad.

We talked about DC too, and I feel like I really wanna go to public school next year. Because honestly I'm not getting anything out of Dc, it's just a comfort zone and I'm really not even happy there. I wanna get out of dc and put myself out there, be outgoing and meet new people, and obviously I know that everything definitely isn't gonna be perfect, but I still think I'll be happier.
And I know that if I don't do it, ill regret it and I'll think about how I would've be different. I think I need to take this chance.
Also, I think it will be good for me, because it's a fresh start. I've been at Dc my whole life, growing out of bad stages and growing up, but I feel like now I'm the person who I'm gonna be for the rest of my life, Obviously I'll mature and stuff but besides that I'll be a lot like I am now. And that's who I want people to see, who I am no, not who I was. I feel like at Dc, people see who I was. I've defenitely made mistakes, and I know I'll keep making them, but I'm happy that I did, because it's made me who I am. I' not gonna look back, because all you can do is pick up the pieces, try to make the best out of your life, and move on. And you know what that's exactly what I intend to do.

maggie.

today is only the beginning, it is not the end.

and this is my future home :]
haha i actually really don't know what i wanna do
with my life, i mean yeah, i have ideas and i can see
myself doing a lot of different things but i don't want to
have it all planned out, I wanna see the world &* meet people
and discover who i am.
that's my real plan for the future..
Like this -------->
that's totally gonna be me & my friends in college
taking road trips and being totally free, not planning just doing :]
and this too.
just letting go, and having fun. God, this reminds me of summer. I can't wait :D
and here's another of my beloved nates...haha
but for real, he's adorable, successful and seems so nice, :]]



hahhaa ----->
i can so see myself doing something like that im such a book worm :pp








Pardon all my complete randomness.
but i love graphics :pp
can't wait to read ur post !

maggggiee

your so untrue, baby i know your nothing new.

So.. i decided to do a post on....BOYS!
haha analyzing them in all the crazy xanga graphics i find haha. i know its stupid, but its fun :pp

so here goes: boy #1analysis:
hair: ehh its alrite
face: ditto, maybe when he smiles? he has an awkward face expression
shirt: yes, love navy and love polos on boys :]
arms: yess :D
abs : heck yes :D haha
style: pretty good i see ralph lauren :]] and jeans are always good
overall: cute , if he has a good personality, most defenitely cute!

boy # 2

analysis:
hair: super cute :]
face: can't really tell but it looks decent nothing wrong with it, it's probally good.. :]
shirt: shirtless :]]
arms: good, toned and muscular
abs: pretty good not crazy good but pretty good :]
style: cute love the ripped jeans :D
overall: cutiee :D reminds me of ricky...haha

analysis:
hair: perfect
face: perfect
shirt: shirtless...and perfect
arms: perfect
abs: perfect
style: perfect
overall: OMG im in love with this guy :D haha hes perfect, i imagine his name is nate. Not because he's like nate on gossip girl or anything...but because I want a nate, really bad. All the nates (in like books and stuff nd gossip girl of course :p) are amazing and i want one so..this is perfect nate. haha

boy #4


analysis:

hair: cute nice color, love shagginess :]
face: cutish, although awkward expression
shirt: aw cute and so teenage scene guy
arms: too scrawy for my taste
abs: cant see? :[
style: cutee
overall: cute, hes younger (our age) which makes him more realistic haha. :p

Boy #5hair: adorable, dark and curledd :]
face: good overall and amazing eyes :D
shirt/arms/ab/style: N/A
overall: pretty sexyy :D haha i love the combination of dark hair with blue eyes its amazingness.

Sooo...now that i've kinda gotten my boy fix :] :p, I feel the need to say something about love...




I think this is really sad, but that today a lot of girls feel like that ^ and it sucks.
Like honestly you shouldnt have to feel like that, im not opposed to hookups or anything but really "listens but doesnt believe, kisses but doesn't fall in love" wheres the true love in that? Like that sucks! I don't want a realationship like that! I mean i know you have to protect urself from getting hurt but at the same time ....you know?

^ This is how love should really be...but lets face it, it isn't . I don't know how many times, I've thought to myself about a guy "he's so amazing! if only he was cute..." This is also sad and I wish I wasn't like that, its superficial, but it's the truth and we can only hope for someone who is like anja says "beautiful in more way than one"

& to end I think this quote is true for me about love...always remember...



"You're beautiful
Every little piece love, and don't you know
You're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh but if it don't, stay beautiful."
-taylor swift "Stay beautiful"

die fighting.

Today was so ridiculously much better than yesterday, I can't even describe it.
but yay :DD and thank you LORD!


so yeah i had a great day :D even though I most likely failed my math test :/ haha
but I just feel so much better and everything is just better. :]]]
&* I learned a lesson....even when you look like crapp (me today) haha you can still have a great day.
So Yay to that and by the wayy anja...hows it going with u-know-who?? And here's some graphics and such because I'm in the moood.

And will you succeed?
Yes! you will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed)
Kid, you will move mountains
-dr. seuss

done for noww :]
<3 u anja !

note to self: just breathe

Top picture ^ that's kind of how I'm feeling today, not to complain :pp but I feel like complete crap and I know it's gonna be okay, but everything's just spiraling at the moment. This whole mono thing, is ehh not so much. But I don't know on one hand i'm like, crap i have mono. Yet on the other hand it'll be a relief because if it's not mono its freakin depression...; :[[[

On the bright side, the second one ^, i'm feeling a little bit better about myself :] which is defenitely good, i mean i'm not on the outside haha but on the inside I'm getting better,
if you get a chance listen to the song "Miss beautiful" by M. Filmore (its on itunes)
its great + i know the lead singer so :]] doubly great.

Third picture, of course, reminds me of new york which was amazingness :DD, pictures will be up on facebook soon, but heres one::

-----> ugh sorry I can't write more I'm about to pass out , but hopefully ill be up later.

lovee u always !
maggiee.

and remember....

Cause I know that I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up..

Today it rained.
&* it's still pouring outside.
Like anja I believe that God sends us rain for a reason.
I think that rain comes and although its bleak and gloomy outside,
after the rain, everything is usually more beautiful.
I've been going through a lot lately, but I know that when it's all said and done
everythings going to turn out for the better, and I'm gonna be a better person
because of it, so here's to all you who dance in the rain,
even it your going through pain,
were going to grin and bear it
cause it'll all work out in the end.



So now that I'm done with that,
i shall talk about my day.
It wasn't bad for the most part, I just felt kinda blah.
sarah thinks that I don't have mono, I'm just depressed.
I don't know, I guess that might make sense but it's not
like I'm gonna go commit sucicide, I've just been tired and pessimistic
and such lately.

On the bright side, I didn't go to cheerleading today which was amazing
and such a nice break, and me and sarah are going to NY this weekend! YAY
so that should be fun, saturday to monday hopefully :) Any suggestions on places to go/things to do while were there?!
What are you doing this weekend anja? Besides C-mas banquet of course? :D
we need to hangout soon and watch/make fun of the clique movie :]]

Also I found this quote today, that I really wanna try to live by::

longest day of my life.

so, today was officially the longest day of my life
heres what it looked like:

-school all day
-get home from school shower
-back to school at 5:00 cheer practice till 7
-game from 7-9
-dinner
and now its 10:00 and I still have ALL my homework! I really shouldn't be writing in this, but I feel the need.

Today was decent, but still like you anja I've been feeling a bit worthless, and kind of judged,


<---- how i feel completely, I feel like everyday people are like ughh maggie! blah blah blah, you know and I'm trying but I still am learning and its hardd :/ But I'm just gonna keep believing in myself and trying hard to stay true to her, on the bright side, I'm super excited about this weekend, (*crossing fingers that sarah can go*) NEW YORK !! :D That would be so much fun and I can finally celebrate my birthday haha.

So, about cheerleading....I had a talk with my grandma before I went back for practice and I was almost positive I was gonna quit, but then the game wasn't that bad. I don't know, I think I'm just gonna stick it out until christmas break and then over break make my decision, what do you think? Hopefully it'll be really clear to me what I should do then :?
I have to do homework now tho :(

love uu

i hate c h e e r l e a d i n g !!

dear blogg.
so this is titled. "i hate cheerleading" but the fact is that I dont hate cheerleading itself , in fact I love cheerleading, real cheerleading. But I hate DC varsity cheerleading '08-09 with every bone of my body . haha
but i dont wanna quit, im not a quitter i never have been i always stick it out, always! i don't wanna be labeled a quitter but at the same time I don't wanna spend soo much time doing something i hate. So therefore I am quite conflicted? any ideas? haha
&&* I'm so very sick of school its quite ridiculous, I feel like dropping out in january and getting home schooled for the rest of the yr, me and sarah howell were talking about it today :D it sounded good haha.
im just such a protagonist lately, i dont why. Like usually I'm so motivated to get good grades and look cute and do my hair and dress up and just TRY, you know? but lately it's like I don't even wanna get out of bed! ugh its depressing! Maybe I have mono...haha hopefully :p :P

So i love graphics, and I'd thought I put on some ones that inspire me and explain how I feel right now so here I go...because visuals are always fun :D






(how I feel most times) ^