i have a long list of things to say, but i'll leave it at you amaze me.

"Always do what you are afraid to do."— Ralph Waldo Emerson

Moood: Happy/Mellowish? :p
Listening to: Black Balloon- Goo Goo Dolls
Indecesive about: you-know-what :p
angered by: the fact that i have a million things to study for
inspired by: You :)



skhksdjfhjkd.
as usual.
quite crazy.
the whole garrett thing, stressed me out :p
but i think i'm decided to do it.
=]
but of course with the rules
and defenitely keeping it a secret.
and ONLY if i really want to, like i said keep it fun & spontaneous & non-complicated.
and hopefully it'll end the way(S) i want it too. with either...
A. us both liking eachother & Admitting it.
B. Me getting over him.
C. Having mucho fun minus complications

wooo.
:p

now all we have to do is find you a hookup buddy :p haha
kidding, i know you dont like anyone
which is actually good anj, boys are annoying and complicated
and boyfriends it seems, only complicate things
just stay friends (or benefriends...? :P) for now.
like i know that sounds gay and mom-ish but its true.
:) from what i've learned anyway.

So me and you really need to hangout, i miss you..dearly
and i'm excited about hanging out
and you knoww potentially :p
btw did u talk to shan yet?
thats quite importante my dear...

sjkehffe.
so im gonna stop blogging and study
but i shall defenitely be talking to u soon
considering its 9:05 :p

20 questions

k so its 1 am, and i cant force myself to go to bed! meh.
s o we're gonna play 20 question :D wooop.
- ill post, u answer in your comment. :D
- no saying idk :p
- yay :D

lets...get...started.


1. Who's the weirdest person you've ever liked? (even it was only for a day or something like tht)

2. What's your least favorite color?

3. What frustrates/annoys you the most about me?

4. What song, do you feel like, describes your life.

5. If you could tell the person you liked what you truly felt about them...what would you say?

6. If you could have any boy in the grade who would it be? why?

7. If you had to be any girl in our grade (besides youself) who would you be? why?

8. What is your favorite thing in the world to do?

9. Name one thing that you truly love about yourself.

10. What do you think is your best color, the one that you look best in?

11. What do you suck at?

12. Would you describe yourself as honest?

13. Whats a guilty pleasure of yours?

14. Whats the first thing you look at when you meet a new person?

15. What was your first impression of me?

16. Do you think my parents like you?

17. If you could steal any of my clothes , what would you take? (haha i dont know why i thought of this :p)

18. What food, if any, do you crave like crazy right now?

19. do you approve of who I like?

20. Whats the thing that you believe strongest in?

<-----i made all those up off the top of my little head :p

so if they seem quite weird dont blame me
maggie + no sleep = total weirdo :p



:D

do I have to spell it out for you or scream it in your face?

"I've only grown stronger because that's what every step gave me.My life may be complicated, but complication is what made me."

hi, im making my own survery...

how was your friday in 5 words?

weird, awkward, fail, interesting, dissapointing.

What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i want him to go for me.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
01. I really like you, it's complicated but i do.
02. Please grow up.
03. I hate you for what you did.
04. stop using me
.05. I trusted you, that was probally my worst mistake.
06. Get a life, like really.
07. How could u?
08. i love u soo much. =]
09. sometimes, you still cross my mind.
10. im so sorry.

whats the weirdest place you've ever slept?
in a skatepark

whats your least favorite color?
i hate orange with a burning passion
except for my obnoxious orange pen..which i like.

now on to my blog post.
friday was for me so weird. I was acting weird, sorry about tht =[, and i felt weird. meh

funnest times of the night:
- talking to u in shans room :p
- our little basement group
- eating cake by myself.
- pingpong with jer
- pissing off garr

weirdest times of the night:
- the campfire. end of story,
- garrett in general
- singing rap songs with chris barbee?
- feeling mad sick :[
- being an hour late? FAIL
- peter putting his arm around shan AS A DARE! faill.
- getting dared to lick the floor.

indescive about:
- if i had fun
- how peter feels about shan
- who jer likes ? (not tht i care :p me and sarah howell we're just talking about it)
- garrett
- why big parties tend to fail...

confessions:
- i dont really know what i want.
- I'm obsessing wayy too much
- fml is making me feel better about my life! haha.
- i miss u like crazy
- i feel like our friend group is falling apart.
- i hate when people change..for the worse.

something thats really bothering me:
- how two faced people are. it makes me want to scream and yell and tell them exactly what they are. grr.


meh.
tht night was a total fail.
i've pretty much concluded that smaller parties are better.
and it defenitely wasnt just you anj, at all.
the guys were being so weird. matt was so weird
gar was the weirdest.
ugh
arhjrkf herkg
i really really want to talk to you about this, and rant and discuss, ugh i miss u!
me and u shouldve just taken some food and some drinks and gone and secluded ourselves and talked :p haha
maybe we can hangout sunday tho!?? :]
u could come over my house this time if u want? :)
just call me on my home phone asap
seeing as i lost my cell :(

im gonna post quotes now about how i feel ! :p

reality go away? please...i cant take this anymore

give me a minute, i need to figure out who i am again.

All she wants to hear is him calling her beautiful, right when she's about to give up on it all.

I want to be the one you're waiting for, not the one waiting for you.

Being with you is so dysfunctional I really shouldn't miss you, But I can't let you go.

"Igot a lecture about behavior & how if we wanted boys to be gentlemenWe should act like ladies, which was idiotic because we didn't want The boys to be gentlemen. We wanted them to think we were pretty& Ask us to dance and hold our hands & maybe kiss us in the cornerAnd send us clever instant messages."
haha :p

We can't fast-forward time to know if it's worth it.So we trust our hearts and hope it turns out right


k im doneeeee
:D

iloveyoubabeee :]

hands down this is the best thing, i can ever remember.

first one: me and you anja. forever. 

second one: totally remind me of our hangouts and gar :]

third: gar of course :p 

"I love you."

"He said it simply, quietly. He didn't say those words as she had imagined them said so many times by characters in novels. He didn't say them with desperation, with pleading, with futile rage or florid persuasion. He spoke without lasciviousness; he spoke only with the intention of being understood." 

ahh. i loved that quote, it's from rumors, which i just finished. 

Anyway, this week has been completely crazy, which is why I haven't written in a little bit. 

from track, to school, to lack of sleep, to being hopelessly confused :p

but i'm okay, and i believe i shall start to figure some things out :] 

like him. 

i'm finally starting to think he might like me :) 

but i'm still gonna be careful and quite coy about it, because u never know :p 

and i reallyy really like the kid, and i dont want to ruin it.

so there we go, friday should be great =] 

advice? suggestions? ASJhSFD this must be great :D 

also, everyone who knows that i like him, you, matt, and sarah howell are ALL going to be there

but thankfully i trust u all with my life :] and i know you guys can be my great observers, as i will observe for you...REMEMBER the plan! :D 

yayyyy :D 

i seriously cant wait

woop woop

we're getting readytogether friday!

:) 

love maggs

oh i thought the world of you.

" Mirror mirror can you tellIf they are kneeling in confession or if they just fellThe mirror looks back and it knows damn well. It’s really hard living when you’re living with yourself"

" He makes me smile without even trying. If I said I didn’t feel something for him, I’d be lying."

"This is your choice, it's black or white and not a shade of grey. Because when you love someone, there's no such thing as half way"

"we dont need drugs, we're naturally messed up"


Hi.
today is asdjfhdk.
quote for the day... "Beautiful as this whole world can be and you just don't see it."
i dont know how I feel, I feel weird, and confused and much too serious about it.
i dont know i feel like he had his chance to say something and he just didnt...
and i'm not gonna fawn all over him if he doesnt like me
haha so im gonna be imature and ignore him
woo.
unfortunately i can fool him and others but i cant fool myself,
and his name is still the first one i look for on facebook chat
and i still check his statuses
and im a sad sad person :p
gah
i gave myself last night to get over him, i was like alright maggie
you have one night to be sad and obsess and then your done
no more talking to him on facebook (unless he initiates it)
no more flirting and sitting next to him
and acting like u like him so much.
u can have tonight to miss him and be sad
then ur done!
but yeah i fail
(as usual)
and yes im going to act like that, but i can't stop myself from thinking about him
God i didnt even know i liked him this much, it was like i was too afraid
wayy to afraid, to admit it, even too myself, because i know theres a big chance
i can fail, and you what there still, which is maybe why i should just give it up now
before i get in way too deep.
i dont know what to think, i don't know what to feel, i dont even know if he's for real.
so what to do?
i dont know.
i guess ill just see what happens, and ill protect myself, because
i really dont wanna get hurt.

untitled.

"light up the sky for me, oh i've been down too long. 

and when you turn you eyes to see me, i'll be gone." 

ooh. 

im done.