do I have to spell it out for you or scream it in your face?

"I've only grown stronger because that's what every step gave me.My life may be complicated, but complication is what made me."

hi, im making my own survery...

how was your friday in 5 words?

weird, awkward, fail, interesting, dissapointing.

What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i want him to go for me.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
01. I really like you, it's complicated but i do.
02. Please grow up.
03. I hate you for what you did.
04. stop using me
.05. I trusted you, that was probally my worst mistake.
06. Get a life, like really.
07. How could u?
08. i love u soo much. =]
09. sometimes, you still cross my mind.
10. im so sorry.

whats the weirdest place you've ever slept?
in a skatepark

whats your least favorite color?
i hate orange with a burning passion
except for my obnoxious orange pen..which i like.

now on to my blog post.
friday was for me so weird. I was acting weird, sorry about tht =[, and i felt weird. meh

funnest times of the night:
- talking to u in shans room :p
- our little basement group
- eating cake by myself.
- pingpong with jer
- pissing off garr

weirdest times of the night:
- the campfire. end of story,
- garrett in general
- singing rap songs with chris barbee?
- feeling mad sick :[
- being an hour late? FAIL
- peter putting his arm around shan AS A DARE! faill.
- getting dared to lick the floor.

indescive about:
- if i had fun
- how peter feels about shan
- who jer likes ? (not tht i care :p me and sarah howell we're just talking about it)
- garrett
- why big parties tend to fail...

confessions:
- i dont really know what i want.
- I'm obsessing wayy too much
- fml is making me feel better about my life! haha.
- i miss u like crazy
- i feel like our friend group is falling apart.
- i hate when people change..for the worse.

something thats really bothering me:
- how two faced people are. it makes me want to scream and yell and tell them exactly what they are. grr.


meh.
tht night was a total fail.
i've pretty much concluded that smaller parties are better.
and it defenitely wasnt just you anj, at all.
the guys were being so weird. matt was so weird
gar was the weirdest.
ugh
arhjrkf herkg
i really really want to talk to you about this, and rant and discuss, ugh i miss u!
me and u shouldve just taken some food and some drinks and gone and secluded ourselves and talked :p haha
maybe we can hangout sunday tho!?? :]
u could come over my house this time if u want? :)
just call me on my home phone asap
seeing as i lost my cell :(

im gonna post quotes now about how i feel ! :p

reality go away? please...i cant take this anymore

give me a minute, i need to figure out who i am again.

All she wants to hear is him calling her beautiful, right when she's about to give up on it all.

I want to be the one you're waiting for, not the one waiting for you.

Being with you is so dysfunctional I really shouldn't miss you, But I can't let you go.

"Igot a lecture about behavior & how if we wanted boys to be gentlemenWe should act like ladies, which was idiotic because we didn't want The boys to be gentlemen. We wanted them to think we were pretty& Ask us to dance and hold our hands & maybe kiss us in the cornerAnd send us clever instant messages."
haha :p

We can't fast-forward time to know if it's worth it.So we trust our hearts and hope it turns out right


k im doneeeee
:D

iloveyoubabeee :]