the inside lingo had me at hello.

highlight of the day: seeing you and shan and both sarahs =] and track being cancelled! 

lowss: hicky nonsense, people being odd. =p oh yeah and FREAKIN SCHOOL =p

so my day was okay

we made it through the worse anj. 

thank the lord. 

seriously this day seemed terribly long

and i dont know, some people seemed weird, 

matt for instance :p ever since he ditched us monday hes been gayy 

as anythingg :p 

but whatever, hes probally in one of his dumb mooods again. 

so anj, i wanted to tell you how much i loveee you :) 

and i appriciate you and honestly dont know what i would do without you 

i can tell you anything and i pretty much do ;] 

you encourage me so much and help me out soo much 

and you are suchh a good friend. 

and i hope i can be just as good as a friend too you too =]

=D

this is what happens when i have too much time.

i think too much about things. 

i think this is a problem

i'm seriouslyy insane. 

=p

but its okay its whatever. 

so the garrett thing. 

idon't wanna become too dependent 

because we talk ALL the time 

and all. 

but idk i defenitely don't have his heart 

and he doesnt nor do i want him to have mine. 

so i try to keep it completely superficial/benefriend releted 

when we talk 

so i dont get to know him and fallfor him 

=p or u know vice versa. 

haha. 

but its still hard. we have this weird realationship

but i think as long as i chill and not think about it too hard

im completely fine 

yet this is hard, i know im crazy

i sorta love blogging 

im doing it more :) 

and u better too 

because regardless of what you say anj, u are inspiring, you inspire me everyday, and you defenitely have things to write about. 

i feel helpless sometimes, this world is just crazy, and i wish i was more in control

which is why the gar thing is good, because thts one thing i am in control ofyou know. 

but i suppose thts a hell of a lot harmless than an eating disorder or somthing like tht. 

i just dont know .

i dont want it to get too out of hand tho 

keep it fun and not to serious, 

i think  i should probally stop him at this stage for awhile 

because if i go farther than this 

i know im gonna get attached, more than i already am at this point anyway, seriously whenever i hear a playlistsong it reminds me of him =p

and i feel like things are changing too.... like its almost summer

and the years winding down

and some people like matt are goingto different schools next years 

and maybe i am too ? i dont know, ill save that decision for another time defenitely :p 

thats what i mean about feeling out of control. 

i love change

and at the sametime i hate it . 

dear lord, im insane. 

maggs.